Yeah, I’m still alive and still (working on) gaining.

But I haven’t really had much impetus to post here lately. I don’t have the kinds of experiences or reactions to share that some of the more verbose body bloggers have; I don’t photograph near well enough to justify trying to sustain this blog on pics alone; I also find that blogging here has not helped me focus myself towards my goals as I hoped it might.

So I will soon be closing down this blog. I will most likely keep the posts up, for what they’re worth, either leaving them on this site or moving them to my LiveJournal, but I don’t think I have anything more to say in this arena.

Hopefully I’ll be able to find what I need to reach my goals soon.

Especially since, as is usual, my weight dropped after Thanksgiving…

1. “I’ve been getting a lot bigger lately…” Talk about how your face is changing, how your clothes are tight and how you’ve been needing to buy new ones.
2. “I haven’t been able to gain lately because…” Cite family, work, unemployment, and general lack of motivation.
3. “I’m not sure if I want to gain…” Submission to various types of fear or oppression.
4. “I’ve been having to deal with…” Coping with various unwanted effects of gaining.
5. “I’m still alive. Sorry about not posting.”

Most of these aren’t exactly the kind of idea you want to see more of! The exception is the first, and one doesn’t always have growth to report. So what’s a better idea? Well, it’s that time of year again… time for the holiday tub of popcorn. Let’s go!

I haven’t been up to posting here in a while, which I suppose isn’t news, and neither are the reasons. Those of you who’ve been around here a while understand.

Thought I should leave an update even though I haven’t much to say.

This week’s meal plan:

• Breakfast: croissant sandwich (~350 cal)
• Lunch: potato soup (~550 cal)
• Work snack: chex, dark chocolate, popcorn (~750 cal)
• Home snack: roasted bell peppers, Italian bread w/ olive oil dip (~1050 cal)
• Dinner: frozen pizza (~650 cal)
• Drink: milkshake, ginger ale, water (~1125 cal)

So almost 4500 overall. Feelin’ pretty round as evening comes on. Love you guys.

• Breakfast: bagel with cream cheese (~300 cal)
• Lunch: burger sandwiches (~475 cal)
• Work snack: wheat chex, grapes (~250 cal)
• Home snack: marinated green olives with pickled red onions (~175 cal)
• Dinner: some tofu thing, garlic bread (~1250 cal)
• Drink: ginger ale, milkshake, water (~1125 cal)

So we’re lookin’ at upwards of 3750 calories a day.

I’m mildly concerned about the ‘some tofu thing’. It seemed to taste all right when I was making it yesterday, but it looks like it’s in that category of things that look good in theory but you wouldn’t really want to make a meal out of. I guess I’ll get to see what it’s like tonight.

While I did manage to get my weight back up last week, it looks like it isn’t enough to keep me on track for the goal I set. Going to have to try harder. And this week feels like it might be a struggle for me already… Here’s hopin’ I can keep it up.

• Breakfast: bagel, with cream cheese (~300 cal)
• Lunch: hamburger helper (~625 cal)
• Work snack: corn chex (~100 cal)
• Home snack: marinated black olives (~250 cal)
• Dinner: asparagus soup, garlic bread (~875 cal)
• Drink: water, ginger ale, milkshake (~1100 cal)

Or somewhere over 3,000 calories total per day. In theory this should be easy: a third of the calories are liquid and the meals themselves are not very large. But we’ll see how it works out in practice.

Based on the rate I’ve been gaining, I’ve set as a goal to be at 220 lbs by the end of the year. With all the year-end holidays it’ll be difficult, but we’ll see how we manage.

Over the past two months I’ve managed to put a dozen pounds back on, which I think is pretty great. My progress is starting to slow, though; it is looking like this week is going to be my first week since the beginning of July where my weekly average weight is going to be less than the week before.

Clearly my instincts are beginning to fail me, and of course we can’t be having with that. So it’s time to go back to dedicated meal planning and calorie counting to make sure I keep progressing. From here on out I’ll be posting my menus again and we can compare them to my progress and work out what makes a bigger tiger. With science!

Love to you all.

That’s right, I’m nearly two pounds up from last week and showing a daily average weight over 200 for the first time this year.

Tried takin’ a pic for y’all this week, couldn’t really get anything to look right. Maybe next week.

Would like to come up with more to say, but I really ought to be gettin’ up to make dinner. ;)

Love y’all.