Muke's growing journey

Hey, all.

I know I didn’t post last week. Lately I’ve been pretty unhappy about my weight because it’s kept slipping, ever since I got this job.

It’s hard being so unsuccessful at something, especially when you’re trying to be public about it, like I am here.

Being bigger is something I need badly enough that, as I’ve mentioned before, I have no intention of giving up on, no matter how bad at it I am.

But it’s getting harder and harder to work at this, when more and more it feels like I’m losing willpower in life—not just in this area of my life, but in general. And being miserable about my body image isn’t helping.

What am I doing here in front of you all, with nothing to show?

Maybe some of you all share my trouble?