Muke's growing journey

Hey, good evening, everyone. Still goin’ through this slump where it’s hard to get excited about eating or anything. But I’m not gonna depress ya with that this week.

Even though my weight hasn’t been going up, I’m still feeling like I’m getting a bit bigger. Not around my belly, really, but I’ve definitely noticed my legs rubbing together more and more lately. Possibly not the best of progress indicators, but one takes what one can get.

How about you all reading me? I know you’re out there… how’s the gaining been going on your ends?

Yeah, I’m havin’ an I-dunno-what-kind-of-lousy week. Just… losin’ that momentum. Didn’t log my data for most of last week; still haven’t for most of this week.

It’s really, really difficult to put on weight. I’m trying to get back into the habits I was trying to build closer to the beginning of the year. I don’t think I should be having trouble with the food this week. Still, I’ve gotten sick of trying to log everything. Well, I say sick; mostly it’s just tired. It’s discouraging when the news stops being good.

And I’m a couple of days late here for much the same reason. I get mighty tired… especially from staying up late. In an optimum life I’d be able to live free of alarm clocks and 24-hour schedules, and just sleep and work at my own pace. (And by ‘work’, I mean the personal productivity that keeps me up till a bedtime that nets me five and a half hours’ sleep.)

Anyway, in short: feelin’ kinda lost. Well, not lost; more like weak, really. Dunno what to do about it. What do y’all suggest?

Had a lousy weekend, gaining-wise. Saturday for the first time this year I didn’t even weigh in. Partly I would attribute this to relationship issues—being distressed or unhappy or preoccupied tends to weaken my desire to eat, and I pretty much had all of that going.

Even now I’ve not been feeling the push for calories. I don’t think I bought enough groceries this week to gain off of; hopefully I can get back in the mood, scrounge stuff up, and get back on track by the end of the week. (Well, I say back on track. In actuality I think I’m about ten pounds behind. Ugh.)

Yeah, I don’t know about these numbers anymore. How about some pictures instead?