205.

3000 calories a day, met all my calorie goals, didn’t end up any heavier. It’s hard sometimes, but that’s no reason to give up, so we keep trying.

But sometimes you get tired of planning, of eating; it doesn’t grab you in itself, and it’s not giving you much to look forward to either. This week I’m not going to think about pushing myself, just for a little break. We’ll see how that turns out. Meanwhile:

206, bis.

This week I went for the same sort of plan as last week, but with rather less in the way of results.  I would try it again for next week but I’m kind of getting tired of pasta in cheesy sauces.

On the positive side I have started working again, so if I can find a way to get calories in at work I should be good.

Don’t have much to say tonight, and no pictures to post, since I spent far too much of today setting up this new site and now it’s time for bed.   What do you guys think?

206.

Haha, that sure looks like a big improvement from last week’s 201, doesn’t it? I got asked how I did it, and the answer’s pretty straightforward: I managed to exceed my calorie goal almost every day (average est. 3652 calories a day) and I didn’t avoid eating on Friday, the day before weigh-in, as I usually tend to do (it’s the busiest day of my week).

The best part is I didn’t really even eat all that much—a bowl of food at every meal, say.

Meal plan for week of 10/4–10/10, result +5 lbs:

  • Breakfast: Rice and beans.
  • Lunch: Macaroni and cheese.
  • Dinner: Ravioli with alfredo sauce.
  • Snack: Club crackers with a basic feta spread, or honey-roasted peanuts, or sopaipillas.

And here’s a bit of what the outcome looks like:

206

201.

Sorry for the delays on getting these posts in on time; I’ve been spending several weekends with my awesome bf and haven’t been home on Sundays to do up my blog posts.

I’ve got a picture here, just to prove I’m still reflecting light these days:

201

Eating to gain weight is hard. I know for some of you reading this it’s something that comes naturally; I tend to find myself without the instincts, the appetite, and the willpower so I have to work at it. And as those who’ve been watching me for most of this year know, I haven’t been too good at it.

I’m trying. I count calories, because if I don’t, my instincts fail and what I think is enough turns out not to be. I set aside times to eat, because if I only went on when I was hungry, I’d only end up eating like once a day. I post here to keep myself responsible. Still, I end up with figures like this.

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I need help.